Got a pic!

I was finally able to get some good pictures for my Upstream pattern!  This one is my favorite.

I've come to the conclusion that I almost like the way I look when I'm wearing makeup.  I think I'll continue wearing it. ☺ I've been so busy lately, being "Mommy", that I've forgotten to be myself.  I've lost my separate identity.  Or at least the appearance of my separate identity.  If I'm going to be modeling my own designs, I need to work on that.  I'm tired of looking like "Mommy".  I said that I almost like the way I look...I need to lose some weight and get fit, then I'll like it more.  I'm about 60 pounds heavier than I was at my most confident.  I'd be happy with losing 50 pounds, because it's not likely at my age that I'd lose all 60.  I exercised yesterday and can hardly move today; my hips are killing me.  I feel about 20 years older than I am.  I'll be 30 in less than a month.  I should not be unable to move a day after exercising.

So.  This picture is not only my pattern picture for Upstream...it's my "before" picture.  I'm going to start exercising regularly, and cut back on the fatty foods and soda and alcohol.  I want to lose 50 pounds.  By April, if possible.  Yeah...we'll see how that goes.  Wish me luck...